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05 September 感动的生活 一个算命的预测过我将来发展趋势:有钱.有能力.却没什么朋友.
人都是自私的,绝对的真理!
因为,人总是想着别人的错多一点,从来不刨析自己的问题
所以,只要自己高兴干嘛管别人说什么,别人提他妈无聊的鸟意见,无视!
因为,在他高兴的时候压根不会多想你的感受,你何必多伤脑筋.
潜在的危机真他妈的多,只有自己最可靠,只要问心无愧,便了然于心.
都说人的唾沫可以淹死人,何止,简直就是臭气熏天!
自己努力的成果,会被质疑...操!没本事,他妈的就不要在老子背后说风凉话
妈比也不想想,你们在睡觉,在潇洒的时候,老子多辛苦的在努力...
关系比什么都重要,所以什么都要会一点,做人得识相点...
还得多留心眼,不要相信别人,对自己负责.
现在这个时代的人都他妈心理有问题,当然,我也很严重...
他妈的,现在的人真他妈的下贱,有力气不去学本事,他妈的就知道去贬低别人...
永远不要暴露自己的真实想法,因为很容易使自己变得脆弱,那样很容易就被击溃...
时刻保持高度的警惕,比什么都重要.
人格比什么都重要,却比什么都更不值钱.
如果有损更大利益的时候,人格就不值钱,反之已然.
中国这地方真他妈的垃圾,我得快点学好外语,远里这破地方...
NND,发了这么多牢骚...我仍然是我,能够创造奇迹的我.
虽然平面软件玩转了,但是,现在得尽我所能玩转3D MAX,下次找个和3D有关的公司去做
不为其他,只为证明自己,磨练自己.
永远相信自己,没有比这更好的办法了. 29 June ...... 公司里面做东西实在太容易了,没有特别有技术含量和艺术美感的东西......
实在是空闲啊,在公司那群"大孩子"的吹捧下,一起玩起卡丁车,晕哦,很少有翻身机会,不过组队我们四个疯子到是从没输过.还是无聊,于是就做点自己喜欢的东西喽.白色的宇宙骑士还没完成,先贴了.走过路过,千万不要错过.喜不喜这些作品请一定要告诉我哦. 09 June 关于 <轻轨> 的说明 为了不在车上引起公愤,导致瞬间的灵感被破坏,无奈之下,只能使用MP4自带的照相功能进行拍摄,效果比预计的差了不少.还有,由于临时使用,上面的时间没有设置过,不对头,请见谅.
人真是不可思意的动物,每一刻都在变化... 29 May 打击不小啊．．． 呵呵．发觉自己的又一大失败的地方．．．
过于浮躁和急于求成而走火入魔．．．只要我的作品有一个人说不好，那么我就是一个失败者，就必须面对现实，我不相信有我做不到的事情，所以，就得继续磨练，然后再去挑战，失败了，就再来！没有我不行的．．．无论如何！
我要把我的生命都一起奉献，一定要成功的让世界接受．．． 25 May 冒风险 本人的致命弱点,太过于追求完美和与众不同.
这次建筑考试过于追求完美了...草图画得太细致,差点来不及完成,真是太遗憾了,由于时间的关系,有几个建筑图成为了意义上的草图...真痛苦...没有做到完美...我完全有这个能力的,别人是别人,我是我,草图在我的理解看来,比成品少点颜色而已...
算了,我的致命弱点是改不了的... 05 May ... 真是的,看来我真的不习惯这么悠长的假期,不对,应该说是用来调养生息的悠长假期.
本来想好好睡觉的,但是,做得最少的,恰恰就是睡觉.本来,懒得出去的.恰恰每天都出门...
一回家,就在电脑前做设计...(虽然没有利益,但这样好象这样已经成为我生活的一部分了),记得没有技术和理论时,常常会应该一个很废渣的垃圾设计而疯狂.当我学会技术的时候,就好象手里有了很强大的武器,却不知道该如何去使用它.后来,理论也上去了,渐渐开始发现,设计是人的天性,没有好坏之分,不过是理念的不同而已...
无聊之余,顺便把暑假的计划都安排拟定好了.到时候有的忙了,暑假应该不会再感到无聊了...
都说眼睛是心灵的窗口,那么我就把它给遮掩起来.带上有色眼镜,这样我看到的世界也会有所不同,应该也会换位思考. 01 May 回家喽... 终于把东西消耗的差不多了...真可惜,还剩2个皮蛋,1个咸蛋,和2升的鲜果汁实在吃不下去了...
人都快给撑死了...好喽,终于可以轻装回家了.先睡一觉,然后,回家...虽然,回家也好无聊.不过,总比呆在学校里面强...耳机才买了一天,又坏了...明天去换个新的...真郁闷,怎么商人老是碰到我这种经常在包换期里,经常光顾的客人呢...
蚊子不要咬我啊.我赤膊睡觉,不要占我便宜呀...困死了... 29 April 流水帐 关于外语考试，我觉得没什么好多说的，在和周围同学的默契配合下，轻松的通过。这个休假日终于没有心理负担了。 然后，出去修头发，找了半天，终于找到个10元洗，剪，吹的，在哪里几乎是在睡眠状态中完成修理的。。。剪头发的时候，再次受到鼓吹，说我染头比较好看。。。不干，我喜欢自然色，一口回绝。顺路还发觉了嘉定这地方还有块红灯区。。。 Unluckly！打网球时，弄坏副耳机。。。头和线断了。。。又要买了。。。没有一副耳机在我手上可以坚持满2个月的。。。真作孽。。。 天比较热，特别疲劳，睡觉时间多了点。。。 设计的东西太多了，基本上，已产生设计了设计扭曲症，有流线批量生产的感觉，做出来的东西都是扭的。。。 然后开始画手绘的画，感觉真奇怪，电脑怎么就找不到这种自如的流畅感呢，虽然，我也不知道自己画得是什么。。。 13 April 事情总算是解决了... 昨天,烧水的壶没有了,害我渴了一个晚上.NND,简直就是耻辱!我开始着手调查事件的真相.
终于,我看到了事物的本质.昨天,中午我正好出去上课.一个小老头带着一群娘子军,来各个楼道"找茬",听说那个气势汹涌,凡是和电有关的东西都属违禁品,我的壶也不例外...要是我在场,一定和他们来个大斗300回合,誓死保卫水壶,捍卫民族尊严.真可惜,我不在场..
昨天晚上,我就去问过楼下的老阿姨,为什么你们把演习搞得如此只大?不就个破级楼评定吗?这五教星有什么好看的,还不如三角形来得朴素大方呢! 老阿姨无语,再三逼问下,她终于交代了犯罪嫌疑人,张某(就是那个小老头) 嘿嘿,既然被我知道了,你还有什么地方可以躲藏?
今天我到楼下去找小老头,也也就是犯罪嫌疑人张某.一个娘子军小排长甚是机灵,来个先发制人,问我是来干什么的? 干什么?还用问,你心里一定清楚的很! 就知道那个老阿姨会来你这里诉苦,看来昨天的严刑逼供给她留下很深刻的影响嘛.
过了一会,小老头来了,一副气势凌人的臭架子(我最狠这种装摸作样的小人),一上来就扯着副鬼脸一口坚定的措辞,不肯把东西还回来.还有个小排长在旁边帮腔 (嘿呦,狠得嘛,给我来个下马微啊?) 不过,这样的人我见得多了,在女人面前承英雄啊!有什么好承的(就这副德行)! 不就破烂五角星吗!有什么好看的(要的话给你多画几个,搞设计的总比别人画的好)!
用学校开除来压我?开除我,可以啊,你试试,我大不了个处分,开除是你吧!哈哈! 什么?这个是规定,混蛋规定,你个木头人啊,只会听别人指挥,自己没有脑子的啊,跟我闹僵了,你也不会有什么便宜的.(你可以代替我住这个床位伐?)
有什么好急得,慢慢磨呗,他说他的,我说我的(他说的话我根本就没听过) 他发他的火,我讲我的理.(就算没理,也要有理) 好玩,真好玩. 他急,我不急. 他扭曲脸,我继续笑. 他说上海话,我说普通话(呵呵,他普通话不行,要我也说上海话,不理会他,我继续说) 真是的,他的颜面在这些女战士面前丢尽了.
嘿嘿,有点软了嘛,一会哭,一会笑的,表情真是可爱至极. 他说,要我写个检讨,就还给我.
不干,死也不干.写检讨?在做梦啊?也不看看现在是几点,我凭什么写检讨啊,不管,你继续开条件吧,不到我满意的结果出来为止,我会继续和你"烁烁不清" 不发火,也不着急,看你怎么着.(嘿嘿,真有意思)
看着他这么滑稽的表情,周围的老阿姨都在笑诶...算了,给他个面子,我先回去看看书,到吃午饭再来找小老头麻烦.
嘿,这人还真有意思.我一上楼,没过多久就跟来了,和前面完全两个表情.怎么着?屈服了?嘿嘿,既然你没气了,就一口气打垮你! 哦,终于答应还给我了啊! 什么?检讨?不干,那我们继续较量! 不要了? 可以啊,那就这样了.(算你还清楚) 问他怎么还了,他怎么说? 晕,他说,我太搞了,他吃不消了..我问他,我搞吗? 他现在只有傻笑.(看来他很清楚啊,如果他在反驳,那我就继续和他讲道理)
既然,找回来了,那么昨天的诅咒就取消吧.算了,放他一马,就当昨天他在那群娘子军前,做会英雄算了...
12 April 英语无法表达的愤怒 碰到个神经病!还不知道是哪个猪,把我烧水的壶拿走了...
好了,现在没水喝了,没汤喝了,Fuck You !!!!一天没喝过水了...人都快成干了...我咒你，不管是哪个猪拿走的,你不得好死!见阎王去!就算死也没棺材睡!全家死光光!
就算这样,还是不高兴出去...继续看书做设计吧,希望可以尽快找回我的壶.最后,下个咒:
如果,在明天还没有下落的话,我到周五就不吃饭了,拿走它的人,一定不得好死!!!!!!!!!!!!!
10 April diary I always think one problem: The reason why I choose drawing as my job? When I was a primary-school pupil. Yer, at that time, I was interested in drawing. So, in this way. I began to make a profit.(earn 1 yuan for drawing one piture) Oh,yes,that's crazy,razy! All of the person believed that I'll be a famous painter.In my memory,I draw the person of cartoons and chinese painting. Such as <Frighter dragon>,<Space night>,<7 Dragon Balls>,<Recruit XingShi>...That's interesting,though I only was a copylist,always copy other's paintings.But really looked alike. Five years past,I read in a junior middle school.I met first teacher Mr.Gao. He appreciated my abilities. I'd joined almost all the paintingh match since that time. I always could get these or those prize. My traditioned Chinese painting,catroons and sketch were all excellent. Many teachers and students knew me. Yer,I lived in the fresh flowers and sound of appland...But, it has been the fable,the past time... I studied in the senior high school when i was 15 years old. It's the key school.god...I had a dream,the pain dream...No interesting,no fresh flowers and sound of appland. Fuck! only study! Who was the best one? The one must has excellent marks... I didn't like study very much. I still like to catch my dream: to be a famous painter, the best painter. Though i got some prize,few people appreciated my abilities...for the reason, a great number of teachers and students refused to recognize me any long...Yer,I had to consent the fact... May be in their consciousness, I was dimwit. Yes,I was the bed boy because I haven't got the exellent mark... I hate their taunt. I hate the feeling which being looked down upon ... But, at the same time, a number of teachers and students could understand me. I'm moved by external... Now I study in Shanghai university. It's new strating point. though I thought choose other university, finally, I chose here as my new starting point. I'm try to be the suess one. Yer the one must has excellent marks too. But I can, that isn't very difficult to me. I've known the feeling be looked down upon, it's so suffering. I'll do. Let others to feel this sense. The feeling of oppress and the feeling of being destroy. Ha Ha Ha Ha,that's crazy, crazy ! No game? No freedom? Only compete? Only make money? I don't know... 06 April diary These days, I happened to discover that my theory knowledge was so shallow. These months I feel Iwas becoming stronger and stronger.But,the fact, I always copy other's ideology,copy other's skills... There's one perception,as if I've lost my soul.Copying again and again. Likes the machine, no feeling, no imagination. May be... If I still copy other's fruits or only use the skill. May be I'll be a failer... Only copy,but won't create a new proced. So,I must spend more time to learn,to find the new world. Not only to be a designer,but to be a great master. Only for this way, I can find my meaning of life. Yes, only ... At this monent, I happened to write a short music, That's from my feeling. Though I don't know how to write down with right way. But I'll try. If some one like it, please tell me. 1 2 3 5 1 2 3 6 <(6 3 5)可要可不要> 1 2 3 7 7 8 7 6 5 3 7 1 2 3 6 1 2 3 5 1 2 3 1 2 3 5 1 2 3 6 1 2 3 7 5 1 2 3 6 1 2 3 7 1 2 3 先用中音演奏,再用高音,最后用低音演奏.感觉没有结局,却又无限延伸的连贯感,都是自我感觉,不知道,大家是怎么看的. 03 April Part .3 Die a hero's death In that brutlity war. The leader Partu guided the parts of soliders persisted in their resist to through a difficult period,to await the reinforcements,to prevent the enemy take their position.He had another important problem.the town which the women lived in was about 20km from the position.He must stay here.He must fright here.Yer,he must do it.Though he knew that's too dangerous.He had a premonition,the ominous premonition of that he world never back. So,as a hero,he was duty bound not to turn back. He'd got ready for laying down his life.Battlefield permeated with gun smoke.The blood like the river,kept dripping down to the ground... In the end of the time,the reinforements arriver at the place of the war. In the corner of the wreckage of the warfare. great quantity orpses heaped up into a mound.the continget found his remains.It's said that the weapon was ereccted in front of his remains.like the tombstone,Hundreds of the hole and scar, were deeply cuteds on his tall of stature. The humiliated and torment from the enemy killed him,But he refused to submit to the unjust penalty Partu didn't forget his sacred mission. he was the real hero.The solemn and heroic warrior. People's arrogant! 30 March Part.2 A solider's recollection From the survival recolletions:"That's too brutality,the enemy was tOo powerful,likes the ellentic person.Leader ParLaTu asked us to retreat to the safety zone.At the same time,he lift the gun with both hands and left."The solider's eyes moistened with excitement."He always say that the live one is the successful one.Our most important mission is...But..." 28 March A story 原创短片Part.1 The story about miss between a man and a woman.
The man has been dead in the war.As a soldier,he has finished his mission.It's the sacred mission.Finally,he's gone,gone to the other world.The world has no war,no hunger,no rich or poor,but it's full of sad and regret.Because he'll never see the women.at last time,he resist the invasion of the death with his streagth.He believed he'll come to see her again after the war.But destirty was so unfair.He lost his friend,lost his love.He used to try to find, try to make one smail again and again......only,love like tears......Why?! In this world,the women has joined the amry.she awaited a miracle that she could find him - he must be somewhere.She carry the pistol which the man used to give her.Now to the women,only the pistol,it likes all her life,it likes the man forever keeps watch over her day and night.In her memory,he always leave her before she weaks up.He has few words,but she also can feel his gentle eyes.It likes the spring,the water or the sun......But now,the spring has gone,instead of the winter;the water has dried up,insted of the tear;the sun never rise again,instead of the endless night...... Like losing most precious treasure,she was so sad.In her mind,she clearly remember the faint sound of closing the door ...... to be continued...... 27 March diary Since I went to the Shanghai university,I haveen't looked out the environment.For these or those reasons.I have no time to do it. Suddenly,I happened to look out the towm.The feeling is too hard to write down.(English is too difficult...) these months,i have no games,no relax,no happy.Only learning more and more knowladge.Only work to get some money.For the reason,I only konw if i try hard not enough,I'll be a failer.Without a single redeeming feature;Not own a thing in the world.I went along the street.But the way is too lang,I couldn't reach end."Never give up."I told to me again and again."so,I nosed my way forward in a storm at night.Though it wasn't interesting thing. Finally,I reach the end of the of the way.It's a bridge.I've two chooses;go or back. I chose back.Because I could saw anything in front of the bridge.if I go straght ahead.I'm afraid I never find starting point od a journey. By the enf.As if I still was a failer... 26 March style I live in the busting city of shanghai.What's my style? Long long age.When I was a child,Ithought I will be a kind man.Such as kind to animals,the nature and so on.But now,Ichanged.My dream has been breaken.I'm afraid I can't do it.The society changes more and more quickly.So am I,I must adjust quickly to the speed of society's changing.I changed again and again in these months.I began to recognize the fact of society.It's made up of four parts:intellecual,property,power and person.What's fact? That's fact.I've got no change.I must change something by myself. I know no one can always help when I fell tired and depress.I must become a strong man. Self-reliance is priority.So,I try to study more and more skill to make more and more propty.finally,I do it.I've made 10000 RMB in the half of year.Though I sensedtoo tired to give up.But I couldn"t.I know,if I give up,I'll lose more things.At the same time,I must be a coward,I'll be laughed by everyone. "Never Give Up"is my style.Yes,It's my style. 25 March 哎... 以后尽量用英语来写吧...虽然,我外语不怎么好的...不过,相信过不多久就会有所改观...
有种预感,下次外语考试,我一定是"万众注目"的焦点之一...既然有这种预感,那么我不如顺水推舟,把自己的英语先过了.接着,再是意大利语.
事业成功的路途好艰辛,起码先要把该做的都先做了. |
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